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My darling boys,

You are sixteen years young today! I feel just yesterday we celebrated your 15th birthday, a year just went so quick.

I can’t believe that you are 16 today, no way! There’s time that I wish you were still little boys in kindy or primary. Those times were sweet and gold. You were so cute, still so naughty and mischievous, but you would not argue and backchat to me or your Dad. You didn’t think that we were stupid and knew nothing about everything.

I know what you really want to do on this day that you turn 16. You can’t wait to go to the post office to get your Learner plate! And from this day, my worry about you two add on. I guess I just need to chill, like you always tell me, and do more yoga and invest in expensive anti-wrinkle anti-aging skincare that your Dad will never tell the difference. Oh wait, he’ll know the difference once he checks his bank account balance.

If you ask me and if I can be honest, I don’t like this teenager stage of your life. I wish I could fast forward it. I find you two are so challenging to handle. Sometimes it’s too much for me. Maybe, because I spend too much time looking on people’s updates on social media about how perfect their children are, how sporty and motivated and all the goody goody stuff. I know, I always tell you don’t compare your life to others, especially from Facebook/Instagram posts. Because those platforms only for beautiful perfect images. People won’t post their dirty laundry online, will they?

So much for the preach mama! Today is about you two, my precious, my world, my everything. I won’t replace you with other kids, don’t you worry boys. Because my love for you both is bigger than my ego. I love you no matter what has happened, what you have done, what you will do. I will always love you, my sons.

I love you enough to fight for you (mostly with your teachers), compromise for you, and sacrifice myself for you two if needed. Enough to believe in you, to stand by it through the worst of times, to have faith in your strength and to never give up on you. I love you both the most.

Happy birthday my darling boys! Wishing you the happiest day filled with all the love and the light. You came into this world on this day and lit it on fire. You are so very special. Happy birthday, enjoy your timtam cheesecake as always requested by you for your birthday.

Happy birthday!

Love,

Your crazy mum!

 

 

 

 

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Happy 15th birthday to both of you, my darling stars 🌟🌟

Fifteen.  Year 10.  Wow!  You used to run into my arms at Kindy, now you take the boat to school and I wonder where the years have gone.  In another year, you two will start to learn how to drive and that would be a nightmare for both your father and I.  But let’s deal with it next year!

What can I say about you two in here without being too personal? Though not so many people will read my blog, I still have to be careful of what I can share and not on this platform.  Especially this is about you two, not me.  So, I guess I have to respect your privacy.

Maybe I will start with your school first, because that’s the place that you spend most of your day, 5 days a week, 8.30 am to 3.15 pm, but often from 5.30 am til 5 pm.  Year 10 is a challenging year for both of you.  The fact that year 10 only last for three term, and in term 4 you will start year 11, it kinds of freak me out.  I worry too much about your education, your academic marks, your future.  Is it normal or am I a bit too much?  The fact that this year you both need to think about what you going to do after high school, what direction you gonna take, ATAR (The Australian Tertiary Admission Rank) or non-ATAR, is also worrying me.  At the end of the day, whatever option you choose, I just hope you’ll make the right one and that you are happy with your choice.

Some of my friends often ask me whether you both already have girlfriends  or not.  I’m gladly to say that you have lots of girlfriends (and boyfriends) but nobody special yet.  You both are social kids, like to mingle, go out for movie and do fun stuff, like wake-boarding, swimming in the sea, kick the footy, dirt-biking, etc with your mates. And I want you to keep doing those but having fun is not the only ultimate thing in your life, sometimes you need to drag your little bums and sit down and focus on your study too.  I know school is boring, but at the moment it is your duty to finish high school, my darlings.

As your mother, I wish you all the best in this world for your future.  May you two always help and look after each other.  As brothers I want you to walk through life together, side by side. And that you both are healthy, happy, and grow to be a fine young men.  Even though the days can seem endless with nagging over homework or training or dirty clothes, the years are short, and my love for both of you is always forever ❤️❤️

I wish I have decent photos of you both to accompany this post.  But as we all know, you both are not shutter nutter friendly at all.  You either be very silly, rude, or grumpy in front of the cam.  I miss those times when you were little that you were both always smiling for camera sigh…

So, I hope you won’t kill me when someday you read this post and find these pictures of you here….

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Be spontaneous and look deep into nature, and then you will understand everything better 💙💙

 

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fourteen

Today is 14 years ago, when I spent almost 24 hours on the labour bed waiting for both of you to enter the world. But all the pains and uncomfortable feelings I had during those long hours was transformed into excitement, joy, and happiness once I held you both in my arms.

Fast forward 14 years later, here you two, not yet a fully grown men but teenagers with lots of energies and attitudes, positive and negative ones, so it balances I think? Though I would prefer just a good ones, but hey nobody perfect and I love you no matter what. But I do wish that parenting comes with a manual, so your father and I know what to do and when to be stern and when to give in. So that we both don’t always wondering and arguing, whether we are doing the right thing or not.

Happy 14 years young my precious boys. I can’t be more grateful that I’m blessed with both of you in my life. You both filled our days with lots of enjoyment, proudness, but also worries and sometimes stress a bit! I’m your mother, first and foremost, but we are great friends, though sometimes I can’t understand your jokes 🤔 As your mother and friend I tried to make you both feel less anxious and steer you in a better direction.  You  both can always tell me what is on your mind, your worries and fears and hopes, and in return you will get my whole heart, open and wide and safe.

I wish both of you a good health, happiness, and that you always chase your dreams, do things that you love, but also be humble and kind to everyone.

Be brave, be wild (but not too wild, please) and stay forever hungry for knowledge, adventure, art, and love.  And last but not least, always be nice and look after each other!

And thank you for cooking lasagnas and serving out for those less lucky than you, on your special day. You two are my angel!

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Love you both equally,

Mummy ❤️

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I’m officially become a teenagers mother.  Yup, my darling little monkeys turned 13 years old five days ago.

Happy birthday again, Boys!  Hope you enjoyed our three weeks holiday and that it brought you lots of joy and great experienced. I think swimming with manta rays in Mauan is the best birthday presents ever! It was so amazing!

Just a simple wish for both of you on your birthday, I wish you the strength to face challenges with confidence, along with the wisdom to choose your battles carefully. I wish you both adventure on your journey and I hope that you always stop to help someone along the way. Listen to your heart and take risks carefully.

You both have changed a bit in the mannerism and attitude. I noticed how polite you were with an elderly people and so gentle with little kids as well. Both of you become a good travel companions, and sometimes you can give me your opinion without being rude.

I want both of you to know that I’m always here for you. No matter what, you always can come and tell me everything, that I will always listen to your happiness, problems, or sorrows.

Sometimes being the only female in the household, make me feel like a princess but also not often I have hard times from all of your criticism and jokes that you all think are funny but I think it’s the opposite. Growing up with you boys make me become a tougher, stronger, and fitter mum, because…hey,  I want to win the race too!😜😜


I love being a mother, especially a mother to my two wonderful twin boys. Happy 13th boys, enjoy the timtam cheesecake!!

Love you both to bits,

Your (not so) crazy mum 💋

twelve

Dear my darling boys,

Last Sunday both of you turned twelve. Happy birthday my sweethearts😘😘 I wish you all the best in life, good health, and happiness always

Unlike last year, you didn’t really want to have big party this year. Just three of your best mates for a sleep over and movie night, and Grill’d for dinner, which was fine by me. I supposed our trip to Bali was part of your birthday present as well.

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the graduates

Time flies so quick, …sometimes!😉 It feels just like yesterday I took them to Kindy, and in a blink of an eye they finished Primary school already!

Last week was hectic for my boys (and us).  They had graduation ceremony, graduation river cruise, and graduation get together. After 8 years being together, shared joy, laugh, and tears, these bunch of awesome children celebrating their last day as a Primary student. It was a bit emotional week too. Lots of tears and hugs and sweet words exchanged. My Boys sure gonna miss their friendship with some of their friends. And so do I! I am going to miss my lovely ladies who we used to share our joy and problem. I will miss our ‘selfie’ time together, and not to mention our coffee morning that sometime can stretch into lunch time!

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the birthday party

IMG_9777I am one of those parents who don’t mind to celebrate my children being another year older.  I like to throw birthday party for my kids, though I don’t over do it.  Perhaps, because my parents used to make birthday party for my brother and I when we were a child until about 12 years old. And the memories of my birthday parties were still fresh in my mind until now.  That’s why I want my boys to have the same childhood memory about their birthday as well.

While I am trying to be creative every year about the party, such as the place, the goodie bags, the cake, etc sometimes for practical reason I just have to stick to the basic.  I let the boys choose who they want to invite.  If we have the party at home I limit the number by 12 max.  Last year, they went to Bounce for some fun and came back to our place for pool party and food.  This year we have it at the Bicton Bath with 16 kids attending, because it is their last year at Primary so I thought it would be nice to have more of their friends together before they go to different school next year.

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eleven

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Dear my darling Boys,

Today you are eleven years old.  Happy birthday to both of you.  As cliché as it is, but time flies so quick, it just feels like yesterday I was bringing my two bundle of joy back from hospital to our home. It just feels like yesterday when you two started crawling and walking and being a monkey one and monkey two 🙂

I carried both of you with me for 38 weeks, it’s considered full-term for twin pregnancy.  You both gave us a fright when suddenly in 26 weeks of my pregnancy I had bleeding, a heavy one, I was so panic but thank God your Dad drove us safe and calm to the hospital, mind you that 45 minutes driving from our village to the hospital through dark and winding road in England was a nerve wrecking experienced! But you both decided that it wasn’t the time yet, thanks God!  Though since then almost every two weeks I would bleed and we rushed to the hospital and I had to bed rest for 3 days then went back home again.  One night, when I was about 32 weeks and got rushed to the hospital, the nurse that already knew and familiar with my situation just shouted out loud to my big belly, to both of you…she said, ” come on boys, behave! don’t give your mum and dad heart attack every now and then!”  We all laughed.

When it was time to come out, then you two decided to stay so I had to be induced and had a very long labor.  I was admitted to the hospital at 8 am and not until half an hour past midnight on April 24th, that you both agreed to finally see us, see the world. Nathan, you came out to the world with the help of a thong (I don’t know what’s the medical term for that, but it does look like the one we used for BBQ!) and looked a bit rough, but cried out very loud.  While your Dad was holding you next to me, I had second contraction so I didn’t really spend a long time to look at and admire you.  Dylan, you came out smooth and didn’t cry as loud as your brother and you were pretty observed, just stared at the surrounding as if you were wondering ‘where the hell was I now’,  you weighed half kilo lighter than your brother.

Though motherhood didn’t come as natural and easy for me, but I managed and dwell with it not bad.  There were days I just wanted to cry because I was tired washing dozens of milk bottles, because you two were very hungry babies so my milk wasn’t enough.  There were nights that I felt frustrated because you two didn’t wake at the same time to drink milk so I felt like I was up the whole night, though your Dad did help.  Poor him, unlike other Dads who could get away from night feeding, he had to help me, because you two decided to play hide and seek with us at 3 in the morning!  If I woke both of you, chance was you wouldn’t drink so I had no choice…. There were times that I felt like a failure because I didn’t know what was right and wrong to feed you, to teach you, to guide you, to help you, to train you, to raise you both to be a healthy and happy kids. There were moments that I just wanted to scream because I was exhausted and tired and didn’t know  exactly what I was doing.  Motherhood, I wish you came with a written manual!

But, there were countless times that I felt that I did a good job to both of you.  I’m so blessed and very lucky to have you both in my life.  I watched your first step, I listened to your first words, I took you to your first day at Kindy then pre-Primary, your first footy game and so on.  I have to admit being your mama gives me satisfaction and content in my life.  And I am very proud of both of you, of what you have achieved lately in sports, school, and in life, that you turn out to be a gentle, kind, polite, yet adventure, fun, and happy little men.

Happy 11th birthday Boys.  I wish you a good health, and that you will continue to grow up as a balance young men and a gentle souls.  Keep shining my little stars!!

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Love you both to the moon and back.

Your Mama,

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sharing is caring?

 

My boys, they are almost eleven, still share the same bedroom since they were babies. I don’t know it is a good thing or not but at the moment that’s the stage of their sleeping arrangement.

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So far they have been pretty good, just lately twin #2 expressed his desire to have his own bedroom. When I asked why, he said he just like to decorate his room with his own stuff without having to share with his twin brother. Plus, he told me that his brother snores lately 🙂

We are considering to get them their own bedroom actually. We are thinking since they are going to be in junior high, so we plan to separate them next year. Although my husband still thinks there’s nothing wrong with sharing the bedroom because he had to share with his other brothers until they were 15 or 16 years old!

Eventhough they are twin it doesn’t mean they have similar taste or personality. It’s quite the opposite. One is quiet and shy but likes bold bright colors. The other one is very social butterfly, loves his friends, more friendly, loves team sports and likes dark colors.  But they both love their sport activities and they have no fear :p

In one occassion when one decided to sleep in the guest room the other one felt a bit lonely so he joined his brother 🙂 This is why sometimes I questioned myself, should they sleep in their own room or still sharing ?

Is your kid sharing bedroom space? If you have twin do they share or have their own room?  Please share with me! 🙂

Happy Monday!

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country carnival

Over the week-end we traveled to Esperance to attend the Surf Life Saving Club Country Carnival.  My boys and another 15 kids from our Fremantle club, were competing against 16 clubs from every where in Western Australia.  The event was quite full on.  We were there since 7.30 am until about 4.00pm.

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